Are you Yourself? And are you Happy?

How many times have you heard it?

“Just be yourself.”

The saying is all over the place, but how many of us actually know what it means? In fact, how many of us actually know WHO we are?

Now that exams are over I have a lot of time to think, think, and think. Yes I’m probably over-thinking but really, life isn’t simple at all.

But then I’m not thinking about trivial matters like what to eat, or daydreaming about my future. By daydreaming I mean flying across the globe, indulging in spas and marrying a prince (Ok that’s too much I know and no I’m not serious about it I wouldn’t marry a prince no way @___@)

From my survey on online bloggers these days it seems that to “be yourself” is to be, well, rude, and vulgar. A whole load of cursing follows a little trouble, and mannerisms are very much ignored. They go all out on their blog, scolding everyone and everything they detest. But they are just “being themselves”.

So does that mean that polite bloggers who don’t swear on their blogs are not being themselves?

Searching for our inner identity is never easy. Even now I have to admit I don’t really know what I want, what I love, what I need. I don’t know what I feel when it comes to certain issues, what I should do, and what I MUST do.

I think it takes a lot of courage to accept truths. It was far too easy telling others to “get over it”, “get on with life”, or “just face it”, “that’s what’s happening right now and you have to accept it”.

It’s far too easy.

So easy that when others are saying it to us, we realise for ourselves how hard it is to accept the truth dancing naked in front of our eyes.

And I think that’s what it’s all about when it comes to getting to know ourselves. Accepting truths.

While we cannot help but hide behind masks to survive in this society, it is important that we take a little time off our busy “acting” to think about our own actions and feelings. Things that we keep hidden from the outside world. Things that only God knows besides ourselves.

That is, to me, what happiness is. To embrace our faults as we do our innocence. To accept who we are inside, and to unearth our inner secrets as we grow wise.

Secrets that even we don’t know about ourselves, in most cases.

Why am I doing this? Is it because… I am talking about this kind of secrets =)

You have to have a lot of courage to find the truth, in my opinion.

So now I ask this.

Do you know who you are? Are you happy?

Yes I know I’m over-thinking @________________@

Just a quick update

I sometimes wonder if I’m doing the right thing, or rather, if I made the right choices.

Sometimes I wonder if I am really cut out to help people when they are facing difficulties, because what I say to them is crucial. If I say the right thing, they’ll feel better, ever so slightly. If I say the wrong thing, I’d make things much, much worse than they already are.

Besides, who am I to give advices anyway? It’s not like I’ve been through all the tough things in life. In fact, I can barely understand what they’re going through.

And there are situations where everyone knows what is the right thing to do. But picking up the courage to do it is a whole different issue.

And here, I need to apologise to everyone whose problems I have been taking too lightly. To Yee Pei, who was facing problems in her relationship. To Leonard, who is suffering problems at work. And to Jes, for I do not understanding a gamer’s feelings.

I’m sorry.